19w5d

we had another OB appt today, and the last one in which we get a sono unless something gets tricky. everything's lookin' good! the best news of the day is this : I AM GREENLIGHTED TO TRY A VBAC! this is HUGE to me.

at first, when my dr. told me she wanted to do a planned c-section, i was relieved. it meant i didn't have to face the labor failure i had with DD, and most likely wouldn't have to face the complications that came along with that failure. but, the more i got to thinking about it and especially now that i know van is a boy, i was feeling icky about the planned c-section. i'd like everything to happen in it's own time, in part b/c boys don't typically do quite as well being born early as girls do, and i didn't want to take any chances of taking van earlier than he'd like.

i am going to try once again for an unmedicated birth (using the bradley method), but because this is a VBAC, i have to stay on a monitor the entire time (dips in van's HB could indicate a uterine rupture), so we'll see if i can manage an entire birth and all the pain associated with it while tethered to a hospital bed. also, if i develop pre-e again, there'll be no VBAC...there'll be an unplanned/emergency c-section. here's hoping that pre-e doesn't happen this time!

oh, BTW, i got van's name wrong (embarassing, yes). my fil's middle name was van trauver, not van triber. also, we've made the decision for van's official middle name to be van trauver instead of rusty. oh, and one more thing...van's official first name is already decided...it was actually decided about 19 years before van was conceived (decided by DH). after the song, mighty quinn, by bob dylan, van's official name will be quintin van trauver anderson. we'll call him quinn or mighty quinn or super Q for short ;-p